total ECLIPSE of the heart!

Before aku sambung post ni, I want 2 be clear about one thing…

I’m a member of ‘team Edward cullen’ for twilight n breaking dawn..

I’m team Jacob for newmoon…

n as for eclipse- I LOVE both of them..

jake n Edward..in eclipse Edward make my heart melts..

n jake is adorable wif his jealousy n over protectiveness..hahaha…

Ok, so arini ak ada masa free skit lps jogging...flipped thru eclipse n found this amazing words by Edward…

I’m not going to kill you now, because it would upset Bella.

But if you ever bring her back damaged again — and I don’t care whose fault it is; I don’t care if she merely trips, or if a meteor falls out of the sky and hits her in the head — if you return her to me in less than the perfect condition that I left her in, you will be running with three legs. Do you understand that, mongrel?

Chapter 15, p.340

 

I’ll be fighting for her, too. You should know that. I’m not taking anything for granted, and I’ll be fighting twice as hard as you will.

Chapter 15, p.341

 Never be afraid to tell me how you feel, Bella. If this is what you need… You are my first priority.

Chapter 19, p.422

 Isabella Swan? I promise to love you forever — every single day of forever. Will you marry me?

Chapter 20, p.460

 As long as she wants me, I’m here.

Chapter 22, p.502

 When I left you, Bella, I left you bleeding. Jacob was the one to stitch you back up again. That was bound to leave its mark — on both of you. I’m not sure those kinds of stitches dissolve on their own. I can’t blame either of you for something I made necessary. I may gain forgiveness, but that doesn’t let me escape the consequences.

Chapter 24, p.534

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Without Words

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not in a good mood..very2 bad mood..

bkn bad mood sbnrnye..more to frustrated..

ye frust sgt!

dgn sape?

myself 6/10..n another 4/10 tu..hmmm..

lagu ni best r..

maybe u'll understand me one day..

but please..

ada masanya u have to learn by urself..

xkan r smua bnda ak nk kna bgtau..

i learn about u the hard way..

y shud u have shortcuts 2 learn bout me??

lalalala

dgr lagu ni jom!

lagu cite korea, pe tah tajuk dia..

tapi tajuk lagu ni Without words..

Translation:
I shouldnt have done that,
I should have pretend not to know
Like I didnt see it, like I couldnt see it
I shouldnt have looked at you in the first place

I should have run away
I should have pretended I wasnt listening
Like I didnt hear it, like I couldnt hear it
I shouldnt have heard your love in the first place

Without a word you made me know love
Without a word you gave me love
Because you took a just a breath and ran away like this
Without a word love leaves me
Without a word love abandons me
Wondering what to say next, my lips were surprised
Because it came without a word.

kali kedua membaca New Moon

hari ni aku demam..xleh tgk matahari n cahaya..mata ak sakit sgt..kepala jd sgt pening..jd ak amik kesempatan baring atas katil n baca new moon for the second time..kali ni scheme n scan je..carik scene2 besh..hahahaha..

sgt suka baca novel ni..movie dia?? hmmm..quite disapointed wif bella in the silver screen..

but..today ak jupe ayat2 yg buat ak rase nk nangesh...waaaa..

I was not allowed to think of him. That was something I tried to be very strict about. Of course I slipped; I was only human. But I was getting better, and so the pain was something I could avoid for days at a time now. The trade off was the never-ending numbness. Between pain and nothing, I’d chosen nothing.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.113

Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget; it was a hard line to walk.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.117

when i read this chapter, i can really feel how sad n dispointed bella was..she's missing Edward soo badly..its like edward is her only wish...cdey...

I thought I’d explained it clearly before. Bella, I can’t live in a world where you don’t exist.

Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.509

After all the thousand times I’ve told you I love you, how could you let one word break your faith in me?

I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that I didn’t want you anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept—as if there were any way that I could exist without needing you!

You’re not asleep, and you’re not dead. I’m here, and I love you. I have always loved you, and I will always love you. I was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every second that I was away. When I told you that I didn’t want you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.510

bestnyer klu ada ory syg ak cam edward syg bella..hahahahha..berangan r aku...

lupa lak yg ak demam..hoho..

nyte2 Malaysia!

'09..wat a year!

20O9

i cant describe wat ive been through this year with words.

i learn a lot in 2009..i had a fight wif my close friends..some disagreement..some misunderstanding..some hassle n obstacles in friendship i gez..but in the same year i learn that the best friendship can only happen after a fight..[my style of fighting is, ak akan larikan diri n senyap n buat bodo..ak rasa korg tau tu..haha] seriously...coz if we dont fight we wont be as close as now n as open as now... aku syg korg..sgt2 syg,,coz korg accept ak apa adanya..n korg xpnh judge ak walau apa yg ak pnh buat..korg sgt suppotive..

2009, i fought hard...its hard being a law student when ur heart isnt 100% there anymore.. i gez korg plu tau yg skrg ak ada passion yg sgt tinggi cam gunung ledang utk bukak tadika n day care for children..ala2 smart reader kid tapi islamic..cool x?? studying is also hard coz i started to give up..i see myself as not good enough for this program...n i still think that way..ye r an..org lain cpt je tangkap apa lecturer cakap..ak ni lambat sket..mcm ada org tu kate..ak ni lembab..ak x nafikan..but i fought hard..i'm barely breathing but i'm still alive..i will continue fighting till  the finishing line...sometimes people need to fall before they really learn how to walk n run..god's will, i wanna run bravely in 2010..

2009, i finally realise that i'm more than clumsy..i'm more than childish..i'm actually an irresponsible bitch who blame people and never think of the consequences of my action..ak mula sedar ni masa awal2 tahun..so ak belajar utk dewasa..but some things are meant to be that way ok..mcm, ak mmg klu makan akan tumpah2..n ak sukaaaa sendawa..its like habit..ak sendawa..so what? dsebabkan ak berusaha utk berubah, now ak x sendawa in public anymore..n ak ni messy..yes ak ngaku..sgt messy..hahaha..ak berusaha kott utk xmessy..

tahun 2009, ak ilang byk barang..hp bape kali tah..duit pon..haish..maybe coz i;m so clumsy n childish kott..but ak skalu ilang barang sbb ak lupa ktne ak letak..pelupa bkn tabiat kanak2 kan? adekah ini maknanya ak ni mcm org tua? hahahaha..i'm learning now..not to forget those important things..like checking my pocket every 10mins to make sure that my hp is wif me...urgh mcm nenek2 da!

tahun 09 gak ak blaja berkorban..utk org yg kita syg..kita korbankan apa yg kita mampu..biarpun bnda tu mnyakitkan..biapun bnda tu melukakan..ak berkorban..maafkan ak klu apa yg ak korbankan x cukup utk puaskan hati semua org..ak dah cuba yg terbaik..maafkan ak klu dalam masa yg sama ramai yg terluka..i'm an imperfect human beinvg who makes mistake..tp sekirang-kurangnya ak cuba...

hari ni da 1 Januari 2010..tarikh yg cantik..mampu ke ak mulakan tahun ni n teruskan sehingga 2011? apa yg menanti ak sepanjang tahun ini? apa yg boleh ak harapkan utk jd? tuhan maha kaya yang mahu tahu apa yg terbaik utk ak; hambanya..

ak manusia biasa..maafkan ak atas segala silap yg ak lakukan sepanjang 2009..

selamat datang 2010!