SHOULD I?

should i be worried?

now that i'm crawling instead of running or even walking..

should i be worried?

dat the time is almost here..

should i be worried?

when the fact is that i might not make it..

i always have this dream..

of me being a successful lady in my chosen field..

i always though this IS my field..

what should i do?

when i finally realise that this is NOT the field i wanna be playing in..

there's another field..

more like a big meadows i think..

that field is where i wanna be in..

but i'm stuck here..

what should i do?

my conscience says "keep on playing in the field u're already in.."

coz according to my conscience,

"there must be a reason why god sends u there..."

o yeah~

that's my conscience trying to be soO0 positive..

but really..

my heart do think the same..

i'm a muslim..

i need 2 believe in Qada' n Qadar..

but

i can't use that reason 2 justify my current situation of crawling instead of running/walking..

 i have a strong will

strong passion

strong mind..

so i will suvive this dark-horrifying-mystical field!!