'09..wat a year!

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i cant describe wat ive been through this year with words.

i learn a lot in 2009..i had a fight wif my close friends..some disagreement..some misunderstanding..some hassle n obstacles in friendship i gez..but in the same year i learn that the best friendship can only happen after a fight..[my style of fighting is, ak akan larikan diri n senyap n buat bodo..ak rasa korg tau tu..haha] seriously...coz if we dont fight we wont be as close as now n as open as now... aku syg korg..sgt2 syg,,coz korg accept ak apa adanya..n korg xpnh judge ak walau apa yg ak pnh buat..korg sgt suppotive..

2009, i fought hard...its hard being a law student when ur heart isnt 100% there anymore.. i gez korg plu tau yg skrg ak ada passion yg sgt tinggi cam gunung ledang utk bukak tadika n day care for children..ala2 smart reader kid tapi islamic..cool x?? studying is also hard coz i started to give up..i see myself as not good enough for this program...n i still think that way..ye r an..org lain cpt je tangkap apa lecturer cakap..ak ni lambat sket..mcm ada org tu kate..ak ni lembab..ak x nafikan..but i fought hard..i'm barely breathing but i'm still alive..i will continue fighting till  the finishing line...sometimes people need to fall before they really learn how to walk n run..god's will, i wanna run bravely in 2010..

2009, i finally realise that i'm more than clumsy..i'm more than childish..i'm actually an irresponsible bitch who blame people and never think of the consequences of my action..ak mula sedar ni masa awal2 tahun..so ak belajar utk dewasa..but some things are meant to be that way ok..mcm, ak mmg klu makan akan tumpah2..n ak sukaaaa sendawa..its like habit..ak sendawa..so what? dsebabkan ak berusaha utk berubah, now ak x sendawa in public anymore..n ak ni messy..yes ak ngaku..sgt messy..hahaha..ak berusaha kott utk xmessy..

tahun 2009, ak ilang byk barang..hp bape kali tah..duit pon..haish..maybe coz i;m so clumsy n childish kott..but ak skalu ilang barang sbb ak lupa ktne ak letak..pelupa bkn tabiat kanak2 kan? adekah ini maknanya ak ni mcm org tua? hahahaha..i'm learning now..not to forget those important things..like checking my pocket every 10mins to make sure that my hp is wif me...urgh mcm nenek2 da!

tahun 09 gak ak blaja berkorban..utk org yg kita syg..kita korbankan apa yg kita mampu..biarpun bnda tu mnyakitkan..biapun bnda tu melukakan..ak berkorban..maafkan ak klu apa yg ak korbankan x cukup utk puaskan hati semua org..ak dah cuba yg terbaik..maafkan ak klu dalam masa yg sama ramai yg terluka..i'm an imperfect human beinvg who makes mistake..tp sekirang-kurangnya ak cuba...

hari ni da 1 Januari 2010..tarikh yg cantik..mampu ke ak mulakan tahun ni n teruskan sehingga 2011? apa yg menanti ak sepanjang tahun ini? apa yg boleh ak harapkan utk jd? tuhan maha kaya yang mahu tahu apa yg terbaik utk ak; hambanya..

ak manusia biasa..maafkan ak atas segala silap yg ak lakukan sepanjang 2009..

selamat datang 2010!